Hello, my loves! Well, I suppose it’s official, the holidays are over and it’s time to reset our minds to the New Year. Honestly, I am a huge Christmas junkie and it’s tough for me to see all of the pretty lights gone, and holiday music ceased. In order to replace the need for joyful tunes, I turn to my Pandora stations like Jack Johnson and Ingrid Michaelson in order to get me feeling more summery and warm up my naturally hibernated state. January can be kind of an awkward time of year considering there’s not really anything exciting going on to wean us off the hustle and bustle of the previous months. However, maybe this isn’t such a bad thing. The pace of the last two months have been so fast, honestly it is nice to have some occasional quiet time. It is a good time for us to evaluate ourselves, see what we need, and what we don’t. A year has so many possibilities, and it really does feel like a new start.
Just like seeing from a birds eye view; the New Year gives me new perspective and the chance to look
back at everything I’ve done in hindsight so that I can reset my goals and thoughts in order to get me to where I want to be in the coming year. Also, I like to appreciate the success of last year, and acknowledge how blessed I have been. It’s so funny how plans can change, at the beginning of last year I was focused on several different things that aren’t such a priority to me now.
It’s crazy to me that right now, the things that fill my mind with passion and inspiration are things that weren’t even a passing thought for me last year. Obviously not everything has changed, but a lot sure has- and that’s why I like to trust the process of life. Every day I make thousands of decisions, and even though some of them feel extremely insubstantial, they are all minor adjustments in the steering wheel leading me to where I will go next. Even though my passions and ethics will help make my decisions, I can never fully plan where I will be in the future… and that is something I am actually learning to love.
Each year I go through a similar thought process… I have dreams, goals, thoughts, and I indulge my imagination as it tends to run wild as I see what I want to achieve in the coming year. But as I live in day to day life, sometimes when I don’t see all the things I want unfolding in front of me I can get discouraged. I can think, why am I really trying for this? It probably won’t happen like I imagine it will. And I’m right… it won’t happen like I imagined it would. It will probably happen in a completely different way- and it will affect me in ways I couldn’t have imagined yet. Just because the ideals I had in my head aren’t playing out like a script I’d written up, doesn’t mean that amazing things aren’t happening.
I have found that as long as I keep trying, and keep my heart and mind open to possibilities, I feel my life heading down a fulfilled road verses when I am only looking for what I am expecting. I think that rolling with the unexpected has power, because I know that I do not, and never will have complete control over what goes on in my life. It’s a much better use of my time if I just keep my mind open to new possibilities, and don’t give up when I get discouraged… because things are or aren’t happening for a reason.
With all this talk of the New Year, it’s easy to think that everything is new and modern, but as the X-Files reboot shows us, the nineties are back and hotter than ever! Tubular. In almost every clothing shop I go into, so much of the inventory is straight up nineties. Chokers, velvet, retro floral prints, opalescent finishes on anything beauty related; and honestly I’m loving all of it. The outfit I chose is a pretty uptown, yet retro style with a velvet bodycon dress, and an antique floral wrap dress over top. Not to mention the over-the-knee black suede boots that I’m in love with. I feel like I should be attending the high school from Clueless at this stage… haha, as if!
The 90s were a time of infinite possibility, and this year I want to capture that same spirit. My dad has always said, your chances of winning may be one in a million, but your chances of winning if you don’t try are one in zero. This coming year, I want to be tenacious- that means to be persistent or strong-willed. I want to keep going, keep fighting for what I want, and remember that inspiration and discouragement are selective. There will always be two sides, but I get to choose what to focus on :)
xx Hailey
